..,hmmmnn,remembering something from the past. ..ahhh, that wound was too much, . .too much for me to realize if i can take the pain without faith in Him. .. i am weak, but i thank God for giving me enough time to seek and obtain the courage to move on. . .that once i was in-love. ..and almost lost. ..all for the first time...
heart has been jaded and broken, almost out of beat, out of tune. .out of life. .
natatandaan ko pa kaya kung saan nagsimula lahat or why i was hurt?. .. Yes, but i guess the feeling has gone. .. It was all gone that i would just smile for a while when it flash and let the good things be remembered alone...
diverging myself into a better horizon huh?,.. thankful, that ive seen what was God wanted me to learn yet never be radical and bitter about it, ..
Marahil inilayo lang Niya ako sa mas matinding kapahamakan, . .It's just me, who's too stubborn, too stupid enough to fight for something that wasn't really meant for me pala,.. He just wanted me to be safe siguro that's why He pulled me out from that situation and never be hopeful about it. ..never let drown from mistakes, more pain, more sufferings. .from more destructive thoughts. .
...regret has no space,i was in-love then, trust too much, did'nt ask for a perfect one, understand the differences, appreciate the small things... content. .naging komportable ako masyado of how those things would mean enough for a relationship to work...but really wasn't enough,. . or it wasn't really mean to strengthen enough because it tends to end so soon. ..
forgiveness has been done, there's no one to blame, there's no need to judge... though i thought it was all done and it has been forgotten. .will i be dealing with the same people again? Do i have to listen or do i have the right to do so?....
. . .pero yun na lang siguro maitutulong ko.., just listen to anyone who finds comfort from the things na nailalabas niya,just like me .. .kahit papano man lang makatulong ako without hurting anyone, ...
Yes i've got too much from the past,.. but i don't want to see any of them who's involved to suffer much,.. I gave up just to save something na mas magagawan nila ng paraan, too much? No, dahil alam ko it would mean something for someone sa mas kailangan niya kesa saken,. .
..hindi ako mananalo sa pagpaparayang yun kung hindi rin lang nakabuti at nakapagpaayos sa kanila..
Hindi ko ikatutuwa ang alin mang bagay na nakakabigat sa kanila.. but ...never will i take pain the second time around being noble enough to save any of them...
Honestly, i don't like what i'm hearing but there's nothing i can do about it. ..I'm just here to listen. .'yun na lang ang kaya ko. . . or better yet, not to listen anymore.. . and pretend that i don't care .
I"m not part of that story anymore..I've longed peace for the longest time and i won't stop it from coming,..not now that i've finally overcome the pain and see things clearly for the things that "matters" for me now.. .
I'm in peace now, more content,.. thank You, but God, let them feel the same.......
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Let the music take control . . .
yesterday, out of the blue before leaving home may naalala akong song ,it has been a long time since i heard this one, i don't know where did it came from at bigla ko na lang siya naalala, the lyrics, the melody, the voice,..sa fx kinanta ko,in a very low tune ofcourse(mahirap na,bka pati salamin ng fx bbayaran ko :p). . .and it felt so good!! I wanna hum it over and over again ! The song makes me smile that i almost forgot how bad the weather is, thou i don't really care about the weather basta i'm safe wherever i go esp. going to school and JA i don't blame the weather that much,i respect it lol!..
Those kind of song inspire me, it's like the soundtrack of my life na rin hehe...favorite ko pa rin siya 'till now..,will download the mp3 later when i get to tower..
Humming that song the whole day never bored me, it's like a new wave of song that i wanted to memorize the whole lyrics of the song and will be amazed after lol! . . .but to my surprized,having a rushed grocery kc 9 na ako lumabas ng school, sa counter i'm hearing the same song...yup, same with the part that i'm humming. ..I almost stopped. .and then smiled after, .weird. .to think that i was there for almost an hour at ngayon ko lang napansin na me music pala sa background at di lang yung SM jingle ang naririnig ko palage :)
I even noticed the cashier who looked so tired bcoz of long hours na nkatayo siguro,..kawawa nman, if pwede lang makipagtrade in para ako na lang muna tutal there's only 3 customer na lang sa pila including me,tas libre na yung egg pie ko bilang bayad. .haha! Asa. .! just wanted to give her a hand kung pwede :)
She thought siguro i was smilling because of what i saw, when she stretched her knees and feel them, kaya natawa din siya . .and oh, she's more pretty when she smiles. .! See, kahit kitang kita mo ang pagod sa mukha nila di pa rin sila pumapalya to greet and smile (ewan ko lang kung dahil sa magbabayad ka or anything haha!) but it's always a warm and sincere smile to me . . .and to my embarassment, hays. .didn't noticed my self,sinasabayan ko na pala yung song sa background as loud as im hearing my voice 1 meter from me. .that after i heard the cashier singing with me,engot. .i just smiled na lang,the cashier looked at me and then smiled too. .malamang siguro nasasabi nung cashier "inspired/inlove" ito at parang wala itong ibang nakikitang tao,toinks! ^_^
It was a rainy tiring monday but for me it was a bright and smilley great monday! . .. GODBLESS! :)
You must befriend the "WILL OF THE WIND " . . . . .xoxo
Those kind of song inspire me, it's like the soundtrack of my life na rin hehe...favorite ko pa rin siya 'till now..,will download the mp3 later when i get to tower..
Humming that song the whole day never bored me, it's like a new wave of song that i wanted to memorize the whole lyrics of the song and will be amazed after lol! . . .but to my surprized,having a rushed grocery kc 9 na ako lumabas ng school, sa counter i'm hearing the same song...yup, same with the part that i'm humming. ..I almost stopped. .and then smiled after, .weird. .to think that i was there for almost an hour at ngayon ko lang napansin na me music pala sa background at di lang yung SM jingle ang naririnig ko palage :)
I even noticed the cashier who looked so tired bcoz of long hours na nkatayo siguro,..kawawa nman, if pwede lang makipagtrade in para ako na lang muna tutal there's only 3 customer na lang sa pila including me,tas libre na yung egg pie ko bilang bayad. .haha! Asa. .! just wanted to give her a hand kung pwede :)
She thought siguro i was smilling because of what i saw, when she stretched her knees and feel them, kaya natawa din siya . .and oh, she's more pretty when she smiles. .! See, kahit kitang kita mo ang pagod sa mukha nila di pa rin sila pumapalya to greet and smile (ewan ko lang kung dahil sa magbabayad ka or anything haha!) but it's always a warm and sincere smile to me . . .and to my embarassment, hays. .didn't noticed my self,sinasabayan ko na pala yung song sa background as loud as im hearing my voice 1 meter from me. .that after i heard the cashier singing with me,engot. .i just smiled na lang,the cashier looked at me and then smiled too. .malamang siguro nasasabi nung cashier "inspired/inlove" ito at parang wala itong ibang nakikitang tao,toinks! ^_^
It was a rainy tiring monday but for me it was a bright and smilley great monday! . .. GODBLESS! :)
You must befriend the "WILL OF THE WIND " . . . . .xoxo
Monday, March 30, 2009
AFTER EARTH HOUR
hase sed," whats wrong ? . .. umiiyak ka ba? . .. "
Owww, definitely not. . I sound like i'm not ok daw, y? . .,
Kalurkei ang isang to. .
. ..ano ineexpect nia calling me in the middle of d nyt? No. It was 3 am na pala...ow she's sicker than me, nagulat ako from my dream, missed call? Wers my phone pala, i forgot...
naiwan sa cabinet,s kkahanap ng mech pen d last hour naiwan ko 2loy dun. .,i hav to run for it, i dnt care hus on the line. .im more concernd s mga 2log s kabilang rum, maiistorbo cla...at ako ang magiging dahilan,baka bukas n bukas palayasin na ako,..wag naman po sana, wala na po akong ibang kamag-anak dito bukod sa nasa kabilang house +
wla naman nkkaalam sa bago ko number ah? . ..ah dlawa p lang.. D other dont bother 2 dis2rb,sure ako,.. d last has d rison to do it,at tama nga ako..,sabado n pla ngaun..
sa panic ko mukhang pati sipon ko naalarma..,lumala 2loy, arrggghhh. , i was hit by that thng a few hours ago,after the earth hour,lumalala,.. kya pala hindi na mganda pakiramdam ko when i get to meet my bf after earth hour, i feel drained.., parang gus2 ko 2loy bumalik sa haus pagkalabas ko pa lang ng gate...
as i walk through the valley of the shadow of death..,ay mali.. ! p. florentino lang pala to
"Me prob ba? Care 2 share? Kakaiyak mo lang?,hey i'm here na, makikinig ako. .."
TSK! Minsan magulo ang tao. .,pag kelangan mo cla pero d mo lang masabi akala nila ok n ok ka lang. . Pero pag wala ka naman tlagang problemang malala para ishare sna sa kanila sila naman ngpupumilit na me problema ka. . ang gulo 2loy !
Der's nothng wrong, sipon ko lang en i hav 2 lower my voice mkkaistorbo ako.. .
Ayun pla, gus2 niya lng daw mangumusta kesyo me sunsim na ako. ..
After dat d n 2loy ako mk2log, bumabara ang ilong ko..,. . Naku,patay,me nagising yata. .. Pagkababa ko me tao n pala s kusina. ..
"morning po kuya"
. .. "Ehem,napaaga ka yata ah o patulog pa lang. .?"
Blog! .. . Huh?! Hnd ko alam kung bat pati pintuan ng cr e gus2 yata akong ipahiya. .. Pagtulak ko bigla ring bumalik, sa takot ko na dumiretso un sa mukha ko bigla akong napaatras na parang nakakita ako ng sumthng like sadaku sa loob! .. .
blag! Gumawa ng malakas na ingay pagkasara . ..pnagtawanan 2loy ako ni manong,..
"Hala joy, hndi n maganda yan! Nxt time pgsabhn mo yang bf mo n wag ka msyadong pinupuyat,sus ading ko! . .."
sabi na e, intro p lang niya kanina iba na e. ..
Ntawa tuloy ako, auko man pero kelangan ko lng mgpaliwanag konte. .
"friend ko manong,nang-iistorbo kc walang magawang matino pg walang masyadong trabaho. ..bigay k nga ng txtmate kuya ung pwedeng maging bf pra me inaaway away naman ako
joke!"
Pngtawanan uli ako ni kuya. ,.
Hay. .. gumaganda ang umaga pg cnicmulan ng ngiti at tawa
..
.. .nakalimutan ko 2loy ang iniinda kong sipon .. .that morning, "Nawagsak a bigat!" lyk vhen says evry morning sa txt!
Owww, definitely not. . I sound like i'm not ok daw, y? . .,
Kalurkei ang isang to. .
. ..ano ineexpect nia calling me in the middle of d nyt? No. It was 3 am na pala...ow she's sicker than me, nagulat ako from my dream, missed call? Wers my phone pala, i forgot...naiwan sa cabinet,s kkahanap ng mech pen d last hour naiwan ko 2loy dun. .,i hav to run for it, i dnt care hus on the line. .im more concernd s mga 2log s kabilang rum, maiistorbo cla...at ako ang magiging dahilan,baka bukas n bukas palayasin na ako,..wag naman po sana, wala na po akong ibang kamag-anak dito bukod sa nasa kabilang house +
wla naman nkkaalam sa bago ko number ah? . ..ah dlawa p lang.. D other dont bother 2 dis2rb,sure ako,.. d last has d rison to do it,at tama nga ako..,sabado n pla ngaun..
sa panic ko mukhang pati sipon ko naalarma..,lumala 2loy, arrggghhh. , i was hit by that thng a few hours ago,after the earth hour,lumalala,.. kya pala hindi na mganda pakiramdam ko when i get to meet my bf after earth hour, i feel drained.., parang gus2 ko 2loy bumalik sa haus pagkalabas ko pa lang ng gate...
as i walk through the valley of the shadow of death..,ay mali.. ! p. florentino lang pala to
"Me prob ba? Care 2 share? Kakaiyak mo lang?,hey i'm here na, makikinig ako. .."
TSK! Minsan magulo ang tao
. .,pag kelangan mo cla pero d mo lang masabi akala nila ok n ok ka lang. . Pero pag wala ka naman tlagang problemang malala para ishare sna sa kanila sila naman ngpupumilit na me problema ka. . ang gulo 2loy !Der's nothng wrong, sipon ko lang en i hav 2 lower my voice mkkaistorbo ako.. .
Ayun pla, gus2 niya lng daw mangumusta kesyo me sunsim na ako. ..
After dat d n 2loy ako mk2log, bumabara ang ilong ko..,. . Naku,patay,me nagising yata. .. Pagkababa ko me tao n pala s kusina. ..
"morning po kuya"
. .. "Ehem,napaaga ka yata ah o patulog pa lang. .?"Blog! .. . Huh?! Hnd ko alam kung bat pati pintuan ng cr e gus2 yata akong ipahiya. .. Pagtulak ko bigla ring bumalik, sa takot ko na dumiretso un sa mukha ko bigla akong napaatras na parang nakakita ako ng sumthng like sadaku sa loob! .. .
blag! Gumawa ng malakas na ingay pagkasara . ..pnagtawanan 2loy ako ni manong,..
"Hala joy, hndi n maganda yan! Nxt time pgsabhn mo yang bf mo n wag ka msyadong pinupuyat,sus ading ko! . .."
sabi na e, intro p lang niya kanina iba na e. ..
Ntawa tuloy ako, auko man pero kelangan ko lng mgpaliwanag konte. .
"friend ko manong,nang-iistorbo kc walang magawang matino pg walang masyadong trabaho. ..bigay k nga ng txtmate kuya ung pwedeng maging bf pra me inaaway away naman ako
joke!"Pngtawanan uli ako ni kuya. ,.
Hay. .. gumaganda ang umaga pg cnicmulan ng ngiti at tawa
.... .nakalimutan ko 2loy ang iniinda kong sipon .. .that morning, "Nawagsak a bigat!" lyk vhen says evry morning sa txt!
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
MY "UMBRELLA"
akala ko uulan kahapon. . Masyadong makulimlim, wala naman daw bagyo. ., PAG-ASA confirmed, cause lang yun ng cold front, sa bandang hapon lalabas din daw ang araw,. .confused, ni isang sinag walang lumitaw, madilim pa rin ang kalangitan sa hapon. . nawalan tuloy ako ng PAG-ASA,..!!
ok, walang problema saken, i'm always ready with my payong. . Hmmmnn. ..payong huh.? .!(parang dun sa ADVIL adverts).... Actually di ko nman talaga payong yun, mas matibay yung payong ko mas makapal mas accessible,wag ng sabihing hindi yun bili sa bangketa lang, madaling nasira kc ung una kong binili galing bangketa..
hiniram lang ni acheng ryan ayun, half naked na. . papalitan naman pero un lang din hindi folded,kasya ang buong pamilya sa payong niya, kaya sabi ko bibili na lang ng bago,at titiyakin kong hindi ko na yun ipapahiram pa sa malalanding mga kamay niya! Harhar. ., agrepina de soledad, donde esta lukrecia ! Kinabog ako sa pagiging dalagang filifina niya. .. ^_^
back to where we belong. ..
Ayun. . .yung payong na napunta saken, ewan, madaming kaartehan bago mabuksan,kelangan pa ng teknik,. at kasing nipis lang ata ng plastic bag ... Ung totoong payong ko na iniingat ingatan ko pagkabili ayun, tinangay ng dating boarders, at ang ipinalit, 'yong payong niyang ngayon ako na ang nagtiyatiyaga. ..hopeless me. . yun ang mahirap kung di lang ikaw ang tao sa bahay, lahat ng bagay na naiiwan mo sa labas pwedeng gamitin ng iba mong kasama. . .ok lang naman saken yun, kahit ano pwede silang makigamit basta me sulian o paalaman. .. Ang malungkot e napagkamalan yung payong ko na kanila, sana nga. . .obvious n obvious naman kasi ang laki ng diperensya ng payong ko sa kanya. .maroon po ung saken hindi black.,isinasabit ko po ng maayos para matuyo hindi ko po hinahagis na lang para maging payong ng mga aso. . ^_^ sorry,. . .
ano nga uli yun? . .
ah yun. .. "kalurkei" is the word. . galing kay pulis pangkalawakan ^_^... .
kaya eto ako ngayon sa payong na di ako mismo bumili. .. Wala akong choice, ayoko bumili ng bago. . Umaasa pa rin ako na maibabalik saken ang original payong ko. .,
at hanggang ngayon dissappointed na wala pa rin ang payong na inaasam asam ko, . .what a word ~_^ inaasam asam!!. .,
maingat ako sa gamit, hindi ako sanay sa palitan. .hangga't pwede pa, gumagana,buo pa,pwede pang gawan ng paraan..hindi ko mabibitawan. . .ganun din kaya ako sa mga kaibigan o kakilala? ..ahmm,wag na sa bf, sigurado pabaya ako, hindi ako ang ideal girl mo ~_^. ..maingat din kaya ako sa kanila?. ..pag sinabi kong ikaw lang, ikaw lang. .. ?pag sinabi kong ikaw ang bestfren ko doon,siguradong meron din akong bestfren sa harap ko ngayon, wag ka mag-alala hindi kita ipagpapalit sa kanya, ganon din na hindi ko siya ipagpapalit sayo..,dahil ang gusto ko magkakilala't magkalapit din kayo... Again,hindi yun advisable when it comes sa gf/bf relationship.. Iba yun! IBA ! ...
open lahat magcomment... =)
malay mo, marealize ko pabaya na pala ako sa inyo +. . .
Sa payong na hawak ko, madaming aberya. .,madaling sumemplang at bumaliktad pag mahangin ,tsaka me konting butas na ata, tumutulo. ..hindi siya ganun kaevident dahil plain black at hindi floral o abstract o colored na tulad ng iba, walang tatak na Avon, penshoppe, Natasha man,GB, o kahit SM man lang sana sa pinaka holder niya. .
Pero never pa nman ako nagkaroon ng mas malalang pagkabasa pag gamit ko to. .,thankful, mas magaan pa nga e, mas madaling isara at ayusin pag sasakay ng jeep...,hindi siya nagwiwisik ng excess rain di katulad ng iba, halos lahat ng pasahero sa jeep nababasbasan ng unholly rain mula sa payong na dala nila. .
alam ko binili lang yun ng singkwenta. .pero kahit papano hindi siya madaling mag-give up saken, totoo..!. .,minsan nga nasasabi ko na rin na madaliin niya na ang masira para bili na ako ng bago, ayun. ., hanggang ngayon nga kahit papano mukha pa rin bago. ., minsan hinahagis-hagis ko lang din sa sofa, sa kama, sa mesa pag di ko ginagamit, sa totoo lang wala akong pakialam kung masira na sa pagkakahagis ko, hindi naman talaga siya ung payong ko e, hindi naman siya saken,. . . pero ayun pa rin, buong buo.. .naghihintay na magamit ulet. . At Hindi pa rin nagpapatalo.!..,abah,! me gustong patunayan ang payong na to saken ah. . !consistent!
Minsan din. . Ah hinde. . Madalas pala nun. ..iniiwan ko na lang sa baba,bahala na ung mga aso magpatuyo,o kaya hinahayaan ko nang pag-aralan ng mga aso ang skeletal system nito.., sige lang! Hah ! Bibili na ako ng bago,magccelebrate pa ko! . ..
Alam ko kung gano katalino ang mga aso sa amin, ang hindi ko lang alam, me taste pala ang mga aso sa mga bagay na pwedeng laruin at hindi dapat seryusuhin. .. Ang nilalaro lang pala nila e yung mga valuable sa mga boarders,ung pinapansin talaga sila pag me nilalaro sila,kahit kasama na dun ang iba't ibang klaseng mura, mas pabor sa kanila yun..hindi sila pabor sa mga unwanted lang.. .hindi isang katuwaan sa kanila na laruin ung payong ng "lets torn it into pieces" kung hindi rin naman sisitahin ng may-ari. ., habang pinagdidiinan mo "lalong" ayaw ng aso...
yun pala yun. ..
Natuto ako . .!
maingat ako s bagay, ayoko ng papalit-palit, kung ano yung unang naibigay saken yun ang iingatan ko. .. never pa ako nkawala ng mga mahahalagang bagay. . Ang pinakamalala lang siguro e yung payong ko na yun. .
masyado akong nagtiwala, masyado akong naging komportable sa pag-iisip na hindi ko siya mawawala . , bagay lang yan na pwedeng pwede mo nman palitan kahit anong oras mo gugustuhin. .. Payong "lang " yan. . .
" JUST " . ., nothing is more important about it. ., at dahil sa "just" na yan kaya madaming nalalaglag sa 2nd list of the 7 blunders of the world "Pleasure without conscience" . . . Tama ba?
. . . Pleasurable para saten gamitin ang mga bagay na yan, pero wala tayong pagpapahalaga na ingatan sila. .. Madaming sangay, sa gf "lang", sa bf "lang", sa asawa "lang",sa kaibigan "lang". .sa damit "lang" yan, sa papel "lang" yan. sa 3210 "lang". Sa barya "lang" yan,...sa farmer lang,sa driver lang, sa janitor lang at sa iba pang below the passing rate of one's highly inclined preference. . .
Payong lang yun, pero masama pa rin ang loob ko sa pagkakawala nito,nalulungkot pa rin ako. .na sa ibang ordinaryong kadalagahan eh shopping lang pala ang katapat ! . .,
habang gamit ko ang payong tas biglang sumemplang sa lakas ng hangin at over all audience ang lahat ng nakakasalubong ko,at tawanan ang mga kasama ko. Pwede ko sabihin na iyon ang kamalasan ng pagkakapalit ng payong ko mula kay miss ganda...and smile atleast me irarason ako
. .e dun sa payong ko kaya?, pag me nakapuna tas sasabihin mismo kay miss ganda na kasing ganda niya ang payong ko, matatanggap niya kaya ng buong buo sa loob niya? Knowing na hindi nman tlaga sa kanya ? . . Makonsensiya siya ! Harhar. . Hindi fullfilled ung saya niya. . . . .
ngayon isa na siya sa mga bagay na minsan hindi pwedeng hindi ko dala pag lumalabas ako, me sarili na siyang lugar sa room ko,hindi pwedeng hinahagis hagis na lang. . . sa ganoong klase at uri ng pagkakagawa niya mas kelangan pala na ingatan ko siya para di madaling masira. .para di madaling mabutas... nagtatagal pala ang bagay sa paraan ng maayos na paggamit dito, hindi porket mababang klase ng payong LANG ang naipalit sa MAS na payong ko dati hindi ko na ito iingatan. . Marahil nga hindi ito yung ginusto kong bilhin nung una. ., pero ngayon, ito na yung mas ggustuhin kong angkinin kahit bumalik pa ung orihinal na nauna. ..,
The evident is clear. .. Just is just a word that you can transform it into an indelible mark of importance. .. Mostly ang maliliit na bagay na ginagawa at ginagamit natin,yun ang totoong nagpapasaya sa ibang tao at bumubuo maging sa ating pagkatao .. . ...parang ganito, sa picture ni marky cielo sa isang magazine ko : sa iba, pic lang ni marky yan, mga issue's about his death, na sa ibang tao madaling kalimutan, .. pero sa puso ko alam ko na siya ang nagpapasaya at nagiging inspirasyon sa bawat araw ko. .. anong konek ? wala lang, malaking bagay ang naibahagi niya sa aken . MAS natutunan kong pahalagahan ang buhay na ipinahiram saken :)
At sa payong "KO" ? siguro nga hindi siya naging ganun kaespesyal kung hindi siya napunta saken. .. at sana ganun din ang dating payong ko sa nagmamay-ari na ngayon sa kanya. ..
Naniniwala ako, me dakilang dahilan kung ba't napunta ang payong na yun saken. MAY KAILANGAN ULI AKONG "MATUTUNAN"
ok, walang problema saken, i'm always ready with my payong. . Hmmmnn. ..payong huh.? .!(parang dun sa ADVIL adverts).... Actually di ko nman talaga payong yun, mas matibay yung payong ko mas makapal mas accessible,wag ng sabihing hindi yun bili sa bangketa lang, madaling nasira kc ung una kong binili galing bangketa..
hiniram lang ni acheng ryan ayun, half naked na. . papalitan naman pero un lang din hindi folded,kasya ang buong pamilya sa payong niya, kaya sabi ko bibili na lang ng bago,at titiyakin kong hindi ko na yun ipapahiram pa sa malalanding mga kamay niya! Harhar. ., agrepina de soledad, donde esta lukrecia ! Kinabog ako sa pagiging dalagang filifina niya. .. ^_^
back to where we belong. ..
Ayun. . .yung payong na napunta saken, ewan, madaming kaartehan bago mabuksan,kelangan pa ng teknik,. at kasing nipis lang ata ng plastic bag ... Ung totoong payong ko na iniingat ingatan ko pagkabili ayun, tinangay ng dating boarders, at ang ipinalit, 'yong payong niyang ngayon ako na ang nagtiyatiyaga. ..hopeless me. . yun ang mahirap kung di lang ikaw ang tao sa bahay, lahat ng bagay na naiiwan mo sa labas pwedeng gamitin ng iba mong kasama. . .ok lang naman saken yun, kahit ano pwede silang makigamit basta me sulian o paalaman. .. Ang malungkot e napagkamalan yung payong ko na kanila, sana nga. . .obvious n obvious naman kasi ang laki ng diperensya ng payong ko sa kanya. .maroon po ung saken hindi black.,isinasabit ko po ng maayos para matuyo hindi ko po hinahagis na lang para maging payong ng mga aso. . ^_^ sorry,. . .
ano nga uli yun? . .
ah yun. .. "kalurkei" is the word. . galing kay pulis pangkalawakan ^_^... .
kaya eto ako ngayon sa payong na di ako mismo bumili. .. Wala akong choice, ayoko bumili ng bago. . Umaasa pa rin ako na maibabalik saken ang original payong ko. .,
at hanggang ngayon dissappointed na wala pa rin ang payong na inaasam asam ko, . .what a word ~_^ inaasam asam!!. .,
maingat ako sa gamit, hindi ako sanay sa palitan. .hangga't pwede pa, gumagana,buo pa,pwede pang gawan ng paraan..hindi ko mabibitawan. . .ganun din kaya ako sa mga kaibigan o kakilala? ..ahmm,wag na sa bf, sigurado pabaya ako, hindi ako ang ideal girl mo ~_^. ..maingat din kaya ako sa kanila?. ..pag sinabi kong ikaw lang, ikaw lang. .. ?pag sinabi kong ikaw ang bestfren ko doon,siguradong meron din akong bestfren sa harap ko ngayon, wag ka mag-alala hindi kita ipagpapalit sa kanya, ganon din na hindi ko siya ipagpapalit sayo..,dahil ang gusto ko magkakilala't magkalapit din kayo... Again,hindi yun advisable when it comes sa gf/bf relationship.. Iba yun! IBA ! ...
open lahat magcomment... =)
malay mo, marealize ko pabaya na pala ako sa inyo +. . .
Sa payong na hawak ko, madaming aberya. .,madaling sumemplang at bumaliktad pag mahangin ,tsaka me konting butas na ata, tumutulo. ..hindi siya ganun kaevident dahil plain black at hindi floral o abstract o colored na tulad ng iba, walang tatak na Avon, penshoppe, Natasha man,GB, o kahit SM man lang sana sa pinaka holder niya. .
Pero never pa nman ako nagkaroon ng mas malalang pagkabasa pag gamit ko to. .,thankful, mas magaan pa nga e, mas madaling isara at ayusin pag sasakay ng jeep...,hindi siya nagwiwisik ng excess rain di katulad ng iba, halos lahat ng pasahero sa jeep nababasbasan ng unholly rain mula sa payong na dala nila. .
alam ko binili lang yun ng singkwenta. .pero kahit papano hindi siya madaling mag-give up saken, totoo..!. .,minsan nga nasasabi ko na rin na madaliin niya na ang masira para bili na ako ng bago, ayun. ., hanggang ngayon nga kahit papano mukha pa rin bago. ., minsan hinahagis-hagis ko lang din sa sofa, sa kama, sa mesa pag di ko ginagamit, sa totoo lang wala akong pakialam kung masira na sa pagkakahagis ko, hindi naman talaga siya ung payong ko e, hindi naman siya saken,. . . pero ayun pa rin, buong buo.. .naghihintay na magamit ulet. . At Hindi pa rin nagpapatalo.!..,abah,! me gustong patunayan ang payong na to saken ah. . !consistent!
Minsan din. . Ah hinde. . Madalas pala nun. ..iniiwan ko na lang sa baba,bahala na ung mga aso magpatuyo,o kaya hinahayaan ko nang pag-aralan ng mga aso ang skeletal system nito.., sige lang! Hah ! Bibili na ako ng bago,magccelebrate pa ko! . ..
Alam ko kung gano katalino ang mga aso sa amin, ang hindi ko lang alam, me taste pala ang mga aso sa mga bagay na pwedeng laruin at hindi dapat seryusuhin. .. Ang nilalaro lang pala nila e yung mga valuable sa mga boarders,ung pinapansin talaga sila pag me nilalaro sila,kahit kasama na dun ang iba't ibang klaseng mura, mas pabor sa kanila yun..hindi sila pabor sa mga unwanted lang.. .hindi isang katuwaan sa kanila na laruin ung payong ng "lets torn it into pieces" kung hindi rin naman sisitahin ng may-ari. ., habang pinagdidiinan mo "lalong" ayaw ng aso...
yun pala yun. ..
Natuto ako . .!
maingat ako s bagay, ayoko ng papalit-palit, kung ano yung unang naibigay saken yun ang iingatan ko. .. never pa ako nkawala ng mga mahahalagang bagay. . Ang pinakamalala lang siguro e yung payong ko na yun
. .masyado akong nagtiwala, masyado akong naging komportable sa pag-iisip na hindi ko siya mawawala . , bagay lang yan na pwedeng pwede mo nman palitan kahit anong oras mo gugustuhin. .. Payong "lang " yan. . .
" JUST " . ., nothing is more important about it. ., at dahil sa "just" na yan kaya madaming nalalaglag sa 2nd list of the 7 blunders of the world "Pleasure without conscience" . . . Tama ba?
. . . Pleasurable para saten gamitin ang mga bagay na yan, pero wala tayong pagpapahalaga na ingatan sila. .. Madaming sangay, sa gf "lang", sa bf "lang", sa asawa "lang",sa kaibigan "lang". .sa damit "lang" yan, sa papel "lang" yan. sa 3210 "lang". Sa barya "lang" yan,...sa farmer lang,sa driver lang, sa janitor lang at sa iba pang below the passing rate of one's highly inclined preference. . .Payong lang yun, pero masama pa rin ang loob ko sa pagkakawala nito,nalulungkot pa rin ako. .na sa ibang ordinaryong kadalagahan eh shopping lang pala ang katapat ! . .,
habang gamit ko ang payong tas biglang sumemplang sa lakas ng hangin at over all audience ang lahat ng nakakasalubong ko,at tawanan ang mga kasama ko. Pwede ko sabihin na iyon ang kamalasan ng pagkakapalit ng payong ko mula kay miss ganda...and smile atleast me irarason ako
. .e dun sa payong ko kaya?, pag me nakapuna tas sasabihin mismo kay miss ganda na kasing ganda niya ang payong ko, matatanggap niya kaya ng buong buo sa loob niya? Knowing na hindi nman tlaga sa kanya ? . . Makonsensiya siya ! Harhar. . Hindi fullfilled ung saya niya. . . . . ngayon isa na siya sa mga bagay na minsan hindi pwedeng hindi ko dala pag lumalabas ako, me sarili na siyang lugar sa room ko,hindi pwedeng hinahagis hagis na lang. . . sa ganoong klase at uri ng pagkakagawa niya mas kelangan pala na ingatan ko siya para di madaling masira. .para di madaling mabutas... nagtatagal pala ang bagay sa paraan ng maayos na paggamit dito, hindi porket mababang klase ng payong LANG ang naipalit sa MAS na payong ko dati hindi ko na ito iingatan. . Marahil nga hindi ito yung ginusto kong bilhin nung una. ., pero ngayon, ito na yung mas ggustuhin kong angkinin kahit bumalik pa ung orihinal na nauna. ..,
The evident is clear. .. Just is just a word that you can transform it into an indelible mark of importance. .. Mostly ang maliliit na bagay na ginagawa at ginagamit natin,yun ang totoong nagpapasaya sa ibang tao at bumubuo maging sa ating pagkatao .. . ...parang ganito, sa picture ni marky cielo sa isang magazine ko : sa iba, pic lang ni marky yan, mga issue's about his death, na sa ibang tao madaling kalimutan, .. pero sa puso ko alam ko na siya ang nagpapasaya at nagiging inspirasyon sa bawat araw ko. .. anong konek ? wala lang, malaking bagay ang naibahagi niya sa aken . MAS natutunan kong pahalagahan ang buhay na ipinahiram saken :)
At sa payong "KO" ? siguro nga hindi siya naging ganun kaespesyal kung hindi siya napunta saken. .. at sana ganun din ang dating payong ko sa nagmamay-ari na ngayon sa kanya. ..
Naniniwala ako, me dakilang dahilan kung ba't napunta ang payong na yun saken. MAY KAILANGAN ULI AKONG "MATUTUNAN"
Monday, March 23, 2009
Discover the hidden meaning in your name
precious joy
Emotional and artistic you have enormous energy and creativity although a rather serious approach to life . Through your own experiences you have learned to be understanding and compassionate towards others and always willing to help out. You are courageous, independent and strong willed with a desire to use your talents in progressive projects which will benefit mankind.
Friday, March 13, 2009
the MOON that represent my HEART
Something unusual happend last night. ., i can't sleep. ., i used to take my kafka book when i can't take my self 2 sleep,or my pen to write something,but it gives no difference ., maybe this past few days i was restless.. or maybe i wanted to start my yufie draft,..or maybe i want to hear somethng from my friends, families at ilocos. .,yung tipong " uy ! May bago ng resort saten ! " or somethng about a new commercial complex at vigan or mismo sa narvacan ü . . . Or , the new sea port at sulvec ü . .,
"Mayyaw-awan nak latta. ., "
Seeing the moon last night makes me remember those escapades from ilocos. ., bonfire sa likod ng bahay, kantahan, kwentuhan under the moon, making a series of "are you afraid of the dark " and the walang tulugan magic sing . . ,vigan heritage ghost hunting ? .., plaza fair ,..
I just wanted to feel good . ., though i'm not really ok then, i just wanted 2 brush off that sad emotion hovering over me ., if only i could get another chance to see her again, if only i could steal one final glance, one final talk. .. now ive come 2 realized why sadness hit me the time she wave goodbye. .the last day we've met.. , why i can't take my eyes from her when she came to say we'll gonna meet again soon when i get home.. , kung ba't hindi maputol putol yung paalaman . ., though i saw those sweet smile, those glowing eyes,still, it gives sadness in my heart . .,
The moon doesnt show emotions, but you can see when it glows from the sky. ., the moon always remind me everything from ilocos, . . walang araw or should i say gabi na i don't come to see it. ., living at sulvec beach. .? there's only 3 things that u cant miss everyday, . .the sun,d moon, the sea,. .
The sun. ..aiza hapen to be my classmate in gradeschool, a friend, playmate, kagroup, , . Everyday sila mga kalaro ko, every single hour sila mga kasama ko. .. we do a lot of things under the sun,we've come to share every baon na meron man kami. .,gradeskul. .iisang school,iisang pinanggalingan,lahat taga sulvec, to be friend with everyone was not that hard,either when it comes to sharing. ., madaming masasayang araw na kasama sila,.... na kasama si aiza.
The sea . ..we came to meet up sa shore after ng class sa hapon. . Laro ulet what else or ligo... but we only have an hour cguro nun to spend with them,malayo kc uuwian nila. ., i have to study at NNCHS when we got in hischool,most of them stayed in ISPSC..walang nakalimot kahit papano, and i always come to meet her and the rest sa "igid ng baybay" sa sea port unexpectedly..there we used to talk,kamustahan and kwen2han . .its always a nice meet up,coz u tend to realized how you missed them so much...
The moon. .. A lot of meet ups, after highschool, hapend by nights... Barrio fiesta. .. lagi ngkakasalubong or nakakasabay sa pagpasok sa plaza,.. Aiza always come to recognize me 1st, malabo talaga mata ko when it hits midnight,..wlang night vision :). .siya lage nangangamusta, laging ngkkwento about the rest, and when we came to watch for the incoming events sa plaza we always hope na sana di umulan,hahanapin si MR. Moon to be sure na it will be a nice night pra sa barangay fiesta namin...,that's how memorable those time was...i always come to remember those events of reunion kuno din. ., the list of joy1 joy2 and joy3, joy cabrales, precious joy (that wuld be me) and credelie joy(aiza). .,( haan da la nga mauma nga dakami ti maaw-awagan no adda ti program idi na,nadar-daras la kano dayjay "the joys" nga maawagan). .^_^ . .,
And Yet we never get bored din singing our favorite anthem. ."kami ang sandigan" woah! atleast we did justice to that, kami ang sandigang hindi magigiba ü it could have mean, the organizers of friendship troopers,hindi magigiba ü. ..
aiza came to be a jolly person, naaalala ko pa yung mga asaran at kunware awayan nila ni melvin,cuz niya and classmate din namen., yung kwentuhan na more or less kapalpakan,those kapilyuhan thing para makaganti sa mga alaskador na boys ,those tawanan habang naglilinis ng cr. .. Hays, . .Those stories,those happy moments,.., they are nothing now but precious memories...
Its just so sad that i have nothing to do with it. .. its in God's hand,in God's will. ., kaya nga pinangarap ko maging blue_fairy para kahit papano i can make 1 posible thing for those people i wanted to live long :) silly , ...that maybe God will give me the power to heal everyone and give them another life to live...But,its the truest form that i'm just like them. .,
I get sick,get weak,get tired,.and soon may get to die. .like all of us will..
God has the only right to decide when its gonna be our time.. ., we gain some we loss some,though its painful for us to loss a friend.., we continue to live para sa'yo,...
Though i cant go home for me to atleast see her for d last time, i hope she understand , . . If i can have all the time lang sana yun ang unang una kong gagawin.. I know di na rin ako makakaabot... Might wait you na lang to come and visit me... I'm more than willing to wait ü ... really, ....
"Mayyaw-awan nak latta. ., "
Seeing the moon last night makes me remember those escapades from ilocos. ., bonfire sa likod ng bahay, kantahan, kwentuhan under the moon, making a series of "are you afraid of the dark " and the walang tulugan magic sing . . ,vigan heritage ghost hunting ? .., plaza fair ,..
I just wanted to feel good . ., though i'm not really ok then, i just wanted 2 brush off that sad emotion hovering over me ., if only i could get another chance to see her again, if only i could steal one final glance, one final talk. .. now ive come 2 realized why sadness hit me the time she wave goodbye. .the last day we've met.. , why i can't take my eyes from her when she came to say we'll gonna meet again soon when i get home.. , kung ba't hindi maputol putol yung paalaman . ., though i saw those sweet smile, those glowing eyes,still, it gives sadness in my heart . .,
The moon doesnt show emotions, but you can see when it glows from the sky. ., the moon always remind me everything from ilocos, . . walang araw or should i say gabi na i don't come to see it. ., living at sulvec beach. .? there's only 3 things that u cant miss everyday, . .the sun,d moon, the sea,. .
The sun. ..aiza hapen to be my classmate in gradeschool, a friend, playmate, kagroup, , . Everyday sila mga kalaro ko, every single hour sila mga kasama ko. .. we do a lot of things under the sun,we've come to share every baon na meron man kami. .,gradeskul. .iisang school,iisang pinanggalingan,lahat taga sulvec, to be friend with everyone was not that hard,either when it comes to sharing. ., madaming masasayang araw na kasama sila,.... na kasama si aiza.
The sea . ..we came to meet up sa shore after ng class sa hapon. . Laro ulet what else or ligo... but we only have an hour cguro nun to spend with them,malayo kc uuwian nila. ., i have to study at NNCHS when we got in hischool,most of them stayed in ISPSC..walang nakalimot kahit papano, and i always come to meet her and the rest sa "igid ng baybay" sa sea port unexpectedly..there we used to talk,kamustahan and kwen2han . .its always a nice meet up,coz u tend to realized how you missed them so much...
The moon. .. A lot of meet ups, after highschool, hapend by nights... Barrio fiesta. .. lagi ngkakasalubong or nakakasabay sa pagpasok sa plaza,.. Aiza always come to recognize me 1st, malabo talaga mata ko when it hits midnight,..wlang night vision :). .siya lage nangangamusta, laging ngkkwento about the rest, and when we came to watch for the incoming events sa plaza we always hope na sana di umulan,hahanapin si MR. Moon to be sure na it will be a nice night pra sa barangay fiesta namin...,that's how memorable those time was...i always come to remember those events of reunion kuno din. ., the list of joy1 joy2 and joy3, joy cabrales, precious joy (that wuld be me) and credelie joy(aiza). .,( haan da la nga mauma nga dakami ti maaw-awagan no adda ti program idi na,nadar-daras la kano dayjay "the joys" nga maawagan). .^_^ . .,
And Yet we never get bored din singing our favorite anthem. ."kami ang sandigan" woah! atleast we did justice to that, kami ang sandigang hindi magigiba ü it could have mean, the organizers of friendship troopers,hindi magigiba ü. ..
aiza came to be a jolly person, naaalala ko pa yung mga asaran at kunware awayan nila ni melvin,cuz niya and classmate din namen., yung kwentuhan na more or less kapalpakan,those kapilyuhan thing para makaganti sa mga alaskador na boys ,those tawanan habang naglilinis ng cr. .. Hays, . .Those stories,those happy moments,.., they are nothing now but precious memories...
Its just so sad that i have nothing to do with it. .. its in God's hand,in God's will. ., kaya nga pinangarap ko maging blue_fairy para kahit papano i can make 1 posible thing for those people i wanted to live long :) silly , ...that maybe God will give me the power to heal everyone and give them another life to live...But,its the truest form that i'm just like them. .,
I get sick,get weak,get tired,.and soon may get to die. .like all of us will..
God has the only right to decide when its gonna be our time.. ., we gain some we loss some,though its painful for us to loss a friend.., we continue to live para sa'yo,...
Though i cant go home for me to atleast see her for d last time, i hope she understand , . . If i can have all the time lang sana yun ang unang una kong gagawin.. I know di na rin ako makakaabot... Might wait you na lang to come and visit me... I'm more than willing to wait ü ... really, ....
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
SA PANGALAN NAG_KAKAIBA,... PERO PWEDENG SA PUSO NAG_KAKAISA : HALO_HALO PERO KONEKTADO :) bahala na....
There's this fren maky hu used 2 call me peach or jea,that i dont knw where did he get those,anlayo nman sa tingin ko,from precious 2 peach and joy 2 jea. ., my name is too long 4 me, prep pa lang ako hirap na talaga ako 2 put my name in just one line,hindi kasya,my little mind can't comprehend why there's so much letter that i need 2 write that time and ended up confused for my last name. While others come 2 finishd it with just one writing. Buti na lang MS. Panem was too considerate about it. .,she always come 2 check my name first b4 i start every activity paper..,guiding me to take every space and let my whole name fits at the 1st line,little by little i came 2 learn how 2 adjust my writings and so with the spacing.., masyadong broaden kc,i realized how far d first name 2 the second kaya ayun nawawala yung last name and section . ., fast learner nman daw ako kahit papano,mejo sa pangalan lang nagkakatalo
... :) it was a trick that i can excel on our activity works yet i cant handle my name ..,i understand why eklok persistently take his name with so much honor,remember him at funny comics?:) . .,he used 2 pad papers para sa pangalan niya. .. Pinagdugtong ang dalawang pad paper para maisulat ng diretso yung name niya,bawal daw kasi sabi ng teacher niya na magkahiwalay, turnd up to be his last name at the second line. .funny how he react when his teacher warned him about it..,that he needs to,whether how long it may take or how long his pad will take him writing his name,walang labis walang kulang,kasi ayaw niyang magkagulo d whole family about it...giving respect to those people who gave or rather complete his name after,pangalan ng father niya,mommy,lolo at lola. .sum it all,its too long nga, hindi ko na matandaan the exact name, basta sure ako me PERCIUS or PERSUS sa name niya, la eh, malapit sa name ko ;)...so he askd his teacher 2 bear with him..respeto sa pangalang ibinigay sa kanya at respeto sa mga taong proudly nagbigay sa kanya...
I still have those papers pa kasi, my "mamang" compiled it in a plastic envelope,mahirap na pag binaha kami sa tidal wave nun' :) ..,my 1st writing,my 1st assignment,artworks,spelling,quizzes,lahat na from prep and some nung gradeskul na... My "manang"(ate glad) have her own din and sometimes we ended up comparing our writings nun,and always laugh kung pano kadistorted yung mga sulat ko from her..it was fun reminiscing those things, those stars on your papers, artworks, mostly bahay and garden lang,.distorted face pero nakakatuwa,. .what i've noticed dun sa mga papel ko back then is walang masyadong erasure,.. Culd hav been na masyado akong aksaya sa papel o i dont really get to much erasure coz i know wat i'm doing back then,that i know what i'm writing and stickd for whats really in my head,my mind at bahala na paglapat sa papel..,hindi nman uso ang cheating nun,and i dont,honestly, contemplate in doing that.,mostly nung hischool ganun, though i had witnessd most especially exams, i didnt come to try it
kasi dyahe..coz i know what will gonna happen next if ganun din ung gagawin ko,sino niloko ko ? teacher ko? clessmates? o " MAS " to myself..,i will nver be as excited as i am to know my score after, i will nver get an accomplish thru myself,getting the lowest score wuldnt hurt..4 you know you can make it better the next tym..mgreview,listen in class.if that doesnt work and you'll come up with low score again then double the effort,.dont take cheating or making some kodigo as an option,i think you should not take it that way coz it will nver do you good,you'll nver learn,you will just depend on it... you will end up nothing..." Haan mo nga pakay-babainan no sika ti kababaan ti score na sa whole class,ken awan ti makaitured nga mangantiyaw kaniam ngamin ammo da dijay bagi da nga adda madi nga naaramid da isu nga haan da mabalin nga agpannakkel kenka.. :) hanggat kaya mo maging iba sa mga bagay na tingin mo pwedeng gawin ng tama,do it,masyado kasing dumadami yung mga bagay na nakikita nating mali and we ended up came doing it
na rin porke't nasasabi nating ginagawa rin nman ng iba,na common na ung mga ganong gawain kaya ok lng na gawin mo din.., its lyk when you get to fall in love with someone,you do thngs na pwedeng mapansin ka or to love you back and take him as ur man,hmmnnn. . Wat do u nid to do? Ok lng nman makipgflirt kc gngawa nman ng iba... ok lang na ako na mismo manligaw,ok nman na un sa iba, .. Until maging radical ka na of thnkng how to get that man... Im not saying na mali lahat un,im not in the ryt position 2 say that.. pwedeng ako pwede ko rin gawin yun....but can you think of any other pocble ways na pwedeng mainlove din sau ung tao or mapansin ka rin as sumthng special in his eyes na hndi na dapat humantong sa ganun, . ? . .
I think u can,we can. .. know him,ipakilala mo sarili mo if u want do good thngs that culd probably make him conscious about it.,him to appreciate it.., let d true you comes out even hes around,.if u've done those thngs and he still get not to lyk you then accept it...sa mga bagay na pwede namang gawin ng tama, dun ka na di ba? atleast pwedeng nakaiwas ka sa mas malalang sitwasyon,... sabi nga ni BOB ONG : isisi mo lahat sa mga taong umabuso sayo, sa mga nanakit sayo, magpaka-rebelde ka, maging radical, pero sa bandang huli ikaw din ang talo,..
If makikisabay ako sa pagging not perfect ng life naten at maging komportable na lang ako sa mga bagay na di akma sa paniniwala at kinalakhan ko,mali ba na asamin sa sarili ko na gumawa ng tama sa paningin ko at makisama sa buhay pero huwag mgpatangay sa mga kamalian nito. . ? wala lang, naisip ko lang , wala namang tama o mali eh, sabi nga nila we're here to learn, to appreciate things, love others, live the dream that you aimed ...,at the end of the day i just live my life the way I wanted to...
"Sa puso ko nananahan ang bagong pag-asa.., sa mga maliliit na bagay na puwedeng gawin ng tama..,
.....and I also refused to believe that i'm part of the "LOST GENERATION" .
... :) it was a trick that i can excel on our activity works yet i cant handle my name ..,i understand why eklok persistently take his name with so much honor,remember him at funny comics?:) . .,he used 2 pad papers para sa pangalan niya. .. Pinagdugtong ang dalawang pad paper para maisulat ng diretso yung name niya,bawal daw kasi sabi ng teacher niya na magkahiwalay, turnd up to be his last name at the second line. .funny how he react when his teacher warned him about it..,that he needs to,whether how long it may take or how long his pad will take him writing his name,walang labis walang kulang,kasi ayaw niyang magkagulo d whole family about it...giving respect to those people who gave or rather complete his name after,pangalan ng father niya,mommy,lolo at lola. .sum it all,its too long nga, hindi ko na matandaan the exact name, basta sure ako me PERCIUS or PERSUS sa name niya, la eh, malapit sa name ko ;)...so he askd his teacher 2 bear with him..respeto sa pangalang ibinigay sa kanya at respeto sa mga taong proudly nagbigay sa kanya...
I still have those papers pa kasi, my "mamang" compiled it in a plastic envelope,mahirap na pag binaha kami sa tidal wave nun' :) ..,my 1st writing,my 1st assignment,artworks,spelling,quizzes,lahat na from prep and some nung gradeskul na... My "manang"(ate glad) have her own din and sometimes we ended up comparing our writings nun,and always laugh kung pano kadistorted yung mga sulat ko from her..it was fun reminiscing those things, those stars on your papers, artworks, mostly bahay and garden lang,.distorted face pero nakakatuwa,. .what i've noticed dun sa mga papel ko back then is walang masyadong erasure,.. Culd hav been na masyado akong aksaya sa papel o i dont really get to much erasure coz i know wat i'm doing back then,that i know what i'm writing and stickd for whats really in my head,my mind at bahala na paglapat sa papel..,hindi nman uso ang cheating nun,and i dont,honestly, contemplate in doing that.,mostly nung hischool ganun, though i had witnessd most especially exams, i didnt come to try it
kasi dyahe..coz i know what will gonna happen next if ganun din ung gagawin ko,sino niloko ko ? teacher ko? clessmates? o " MAS " to myself..,i will nver be as excited as i am to know my score after, i will nver get an accomplish thru myself,getting the lowest score wuldnt hurt..4 you know you can make it better the next tym..mgreview,listen in class.if that doesnt work and you'll come up with low score again then double the effort,.dont take cheating or making some kodigo as an option,i think you should not take it that way coz it will nver do you good,you'll nver learn,you will just depend on it... you will end up nothing..." Haan mo nga pakay-babainan no sika ti kababaan ti score na sa whole class,ken awan ti makaitured nga mangantiyaw kaniam ngamin ammo da dijay bagi da nga adda madi nga naaramid da isu nga haan da mabalin nga agpannakkel kenka.. :) hanggat kaya mo maging iba sa mga bagay na tingin mo pwedeng gawin ng tama,do it,masyado kasing dumadami yung mga bagay na nakikita nating mali and we ended up came doing it
na rin porke't nasasabi nating ginagawa rin nman ng iba,na common na ung mga ganong gawain kaya ok lng na gawin mo din.., its lyk when you get to fall in love with someone,you do thngs na pwedeng mapansin ka or to love you back and take him as ur man,hmmnnn. . Wat do u nid to do? Ok lng nman makipgflirt kc gngawa nman ng iba... ok lang na ako na mismo manligaw,ok nman na un sa iba, .. Until maging radical ka na of thnkng how to get that man... Im not saying na mali lahat un,im not in the ryt position 2 say that.. pwedeng ako pwede ko rin gawin yun....but can you think of any other pocble ways na pwedeng mainlove din sau ung tao or mapansin ka rin as sumthng special in his eyes na hndi na dapat humantong sa ganun, . ? . .
I think u can,we can. .. know him,ipakilala mo sarili mo if u want do good thngs that culd probably make him conscious about it.,him to appreciate it.., let d true you comes out even hes around,.if u've done those thngs and he still get not to lyk you then accept it...sa mga bagay na pwede namang gawin ng tama, dun ka na di ba? atleast pwedeng nakaiwas ka sa mas malalang sitwasyon,... sabi nga ni BOB ONG : isisi mo lahat sa mga taong umabuso sayo, sa mga nanakit sayo, magpaka-rebelde ka, maging radical, pero sa bandang huli ikaw din ang talo,..
If makikisabay ako sa pagging not perfect ng life naten at maging komportable na lang ako sa mga bagay na di akma sa paniniwala at kinalakhan ko,mali ba na asamin sa sarili ko na gumawa ng tama sa paningin ko at makisama sa buhay pero huwag mgpatangay sa mga kamalian nito. . ? wala lang, naisip ko lang , wala namang tama o mali eh, sabi nga nila we're here to learn, to appreciate things, love others, live the dream that you aimed ...,at the end of the day i just live my life the way I wanted to...
"Sa puso ko nananahan ang bagong pag-asa.., sa mga maliliit na bagay na puwedeng gawin ng tama..,
.....and I also refused to believe that i'm part of the "LOST GENERATION" .
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Good Messages for A Friend
TO : BeLLE, EDeN, EThel, ... my bFf's :) thAnK YoU is nOt eNouGh......
Feel good when somebody Miss u. Feel better when somebody Loves u. But feel best when somebody never forgets u.
Friends are like stars... you don't see them all the time, but you know they're there.
When God opened the window of the Heaven He asked me: What is your wish for today? “I said : please take special care of the person reading this!”
Time might lead me to nowhere and faith might break into pieces but I will always be THANKFUL that once in my life’s journey we became FRIENDS!
As long as we have memories, yesterday remains; as long as we have hope, tomorrow awaits. As long as we have Friendship, each day is never a waste.
Good frenz are like quilts... it never loses its warmth...
There is a big difference between friendship and a rose... Roses last only a while ... but friendship is for ever..
i am nothing without them... precious will be precious as long as i hav them ...
though i lost one friend today, i know GOD will take care of her now that she used to depart from our world,..
i must noy cry,... she's more than safe now,
i will never forget that day na pumunta kau sa house kasama nina louie, kayo nina regy last january, i'm more than happy to see you kasi matagal tagal din bago nagbonding ulet....
though yun na siguro yung pamamaalam....
since gradeschool kayo yung mga kapatid na idinagdag ko,... friends that i will always treasure, mga kababatang hindi ko ipagpapalit.......goodbye for now, but i know i will meet you din soon..... thank you for evrything ............. credelie joy barcelona .................may you rest in peace ......++++++
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
OBEDIENCE
GREAT IS OUR GLADNESS TO
SERVE GOD THROUGH OTHERS,
FOR OUR FATHER TAUGHT US WE
ALL ARE SISTERS AND BROTHERS,
AND THE PEOPLE WE MEET
ON LIFE'S THOROUGHFARES
ARE BURDENED WITH TROUBLE
AND SORROW AND CARES,
AND THIS IS THE CHANCE
WE ARE GIVEN EACH DAY
TO WITNESS FOR GOD
AND TO LEARN TO OBEY.
"BUT THIS COMMAND I GAVE THEM, 'OBEY MY VOICE,
AND I WILL BE YOUR GOD, AND YOU SHALL BE
MY PEOPLE; AND WALK IN ALL THE WAY THAT
I COMMAND YOU, THAT IT MAY BE WELL WITH YOU.'"
JEREMIAH 7:23
SERVE GOD THROUGH OTHERS,
FOR OUR FATHER TAUGHT US WE
ALL ARE SISTERS AND BROTHERS,
AND THE PEOPLE WE MEET
ON LIFE'S THOROUGHFARES
ARE BURDENED WITH TROUBLE
AND SORROW AND CARES,
AND THIS IS THE CHANCE
WE ARE GIVEN EACH DAY
TO WITNESS FOR GOD
AND TO LEARN TO OBEY.
"BUT THIS COMMAND I GAVE THEM, 'OBEY MY VOICE,
AND I WILL BE YOUR GOD, AND YOU SHALL BE
MY PEOPLE; AND WALK IN ALL THE WAY THAT
I COMMAND YOU, THAT IT MAY BE WELL WITH YOU.'"
JEREMIAH 7:23
Friday, February 27, 2009
Beautiful Rockets and Explosions
I've seen these video at youtube featured by http://paultelner.com/ ...
Focus, exposure, and framing a show like this is harder than most people know. I will always maintain that fireworks are the most civilized use of gunpowder! That was absolutely amazingly beautiful, it made me fall in love with fireworks all over again. ^_^
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Filipina: A Tribute to the Filipino Woman
Filipina: A Tribute to the Filipino Woman is a hard-bound coffee-table book paying tribute to the women of the Philippines that features striking photos of the Filipina captured in the different facets of her womanhood:a caring mother, a hobby enthusiast, a spiritual person, a determinate athlete, a professional or a simple citizen.
This book is a journey into the heart and soul of the Filipino woman, both famous and unknown.
On every page, the reader will get a hint of why the country is so much indebted to its women : the virtues of the Filipina reveal themselves as we can see her create a piece of art, perform on stage or in the sports arena, harvest rice, demonstrate on the street, or simply attend to her children.
The book was painstakingly produced by Louis Paul Heussaff, CEO of Supply Oilfield Services, as a testament to diversity’s feat, vividly presenting the different faces of a Filipina’s womanhood. No one can understand a filipina more than this french national married to a wonderful Pinay herself.
A collection of over 200 photographs, a myriad faces of the Filipina are highlighted in this beautifully designed book. The Manila urbanite finds her place alongside women from the remote hills of Sabtang. Celebrities, artists, politicians and ordinary women are presented in these photographs which highlight the elegance, determination, devotion, sensibility and individuality of the Filipina.
The book is sold at Amazon for $295 (Php 14,500) but thru the kindess of the publisher, it will be made available to proudly filipina members only for Php 1,500 ($30) for a limited time. You can pre-order the book by contacting here.
19 Guidelines For Self Love (Excerpt from Dear God, How Can I Finally Love Myself?)
1. I am in this life to live according to what feels true for me alone. I listen to myself, my heart, and I stop allowing myself to be ordered around by others, now.
2. When I am asked to do something that I really do not want to do, I say no. If the person asks me why, I simply say that I do not feel comfortable with it or do not feel up to it.
3. I remove myself from any person or situation that is abusive and hurtful.
4. When someone tries to tell me what I can and cannot do, I thank them for their perspective and let them know in words and actions that I am the only one who can make my decisions for me.
5. Every day I look in the mirror at least two times and tell myself three good qualities about myself based on my observable actions.
6. I remind myself that my worth has nothing to do with my outward circumstances. I know I can change any outer circumstance I feel unhappy about with my decision to change it. If I cannot change the actual circumstance, I know I can always receive the higher perspective about it, which will then transform my feelings to understanding and inner peace.
7. Every time I compare myself to people I admire, I remind myself that I have those same qualities within me, and I get excited about bringing out that part of myself in my life.
8. I do only what I feel comfortable doing with respect to any area of my life.
9. I ask myself what I would most love to express in terms of my life direction and purpose. I get in touch with what inspires me, and then I follow through with my actions.
10. I do writings to God, as I personally understand Him or Her to be, and ask for guidance any time I feel uncertain about any situation in my life, and I ask for guidance so I can move forward in the most positive direction.
11. I remember that there is no such thing as competition. Every person can express his or her own best, and so can I.
12. I express everything in my life from my heart because it brings me joy.
13. I follow my gut feelings and inner knowing at all times, and never allow anyone to steer me away from my truth.
14. I immediately stop all negative comments to and about myself. When a negative thought comes up in my mind, I acknowledge that it is simply an old, conditioned, negative thought, and I replace it with a statement of truth about myself.
15. I stop trying to mold myself into what I think others want me to be, and bring out the courage to be and express who I really am.
16. I share my life’s circumstances only with people who are positive and fully supportive of me.
17. I stop discussing my life’s problems with people whose shoes I would never want to see myself in.
18. I release all blame on others about my life circumstances, and from this moment forward take personal responsibility to create the life I love to live, one moment at a time.
19. I stop trying to get other people to understand me if they do not understand. Instead, I simply allow them their view while I continue to do what feels true for me, as long as it brings no harm to anyone.
I AM " THE STAR "
You are The Star
Hope, expectation, Bright promises.
The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realized
The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
In Silence but not Lonely
I beg God
not to let me die in an accident,
or in a hospital bed,
I want to die holding my pen,
writing on mynotebook instead,
seating in front of a view,
…being sure to have loved
…seating in front of my oceans
with the lunacy of my thoughts,
in silence but not lonely,
in peace,
in joy,
in love!
I beg God to allow me to first see
the little things in life,
to identify them as seeds,
as hidden wonders of this world.
I want to have forgotten the strife
…to have given more than I have received
…to have sheltered homeless souls
avoiding them to constantly walk alone.
I beg God to give me a life
long, long enough to love,
and to make those around me,
feeling it was all worth,
…to take away my hands if He wants
but never to empty my soul
…to make me blind with any sand
but to allow me to still feel with my own heart.
I beg God to allow me breath
until the moment I sit in front of the beach,
while smelling the breeze,
while feeling the moist in the wind,
with my heart in one place,
…being sure of what I have lived
…being sure to know it was worth.
I beg God to allow me be
after everyone has gone,
to save them the pain of loss,
…to let me take a nap and rest
…being sure of who my spirit will meet
when I cross the doors of death.
when I won‘t have more needs...
I beg God to allow me that moment
…feeling complete
in silence but not loenly,
in peace,
in joy,
in love!
Stairway To Heaven OST - na man eh nuh - Kim Hyun Ah
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